Secret Admirer.

I never thought I'd find the right girl for me, but I have!

She just doesn't know it yet.

What I mean is, I haven't spoken to her (yet!) but I'm sure she's seen me. She must have, I'm outside her house every day.

She looks down from the roof, there's a crowd of us, but I know she's looking at me. There's always a load of people milling around, and they all look up at her, arms outstretched. All day. But they haven't got a chance, my girl only has eyes for me.

***

She really does look amazing up there. Her home used to be a supermarket, but now it's all fortified. The windows have been boarded up, and dead refrigerators block the doors. I haven't been inside, but no-one else has, either. That's not for want of trying, though. The crowd that always seems to be hanging about here bangs on the windows and tries to claw their way through the barricades. Occasionally I'll join them, but I don't want her to see me do it. It's very rude of me, but there's no other way for me to see her. At least my motivations are pure; I just want to talk to her. The rest of them probably want to sell her something...but they seem very poorly dressed for salesmen.

***

I'm getting a little depressed over how little success I'm having. It's like she doesn't notice me amoungst the others. I thought about placing a lonely hearts ad...something along the lines of:

"You were the dark haired girl in the park. I was the guy standing under the tree. Our eyes met. I think we had a moment...then I was jumped by these grungy looking guys with blood all over them."

Nah, stupid. She'll remember all that.

Besides, now I think of it...the newspapers don't seem to get printed anymore.

***

I think she's lost weight. She looked a little unsteady on her feet today, though. The rifle seemed heavier in her hands than it has before. Maybe she needs some TLC. Whatvever it is, I hope it's not catching, I already feel weird. And everyone else here looks kind of sick, too. They're dirty, too, I can't get over how dreadful everyone looks. This used to be a nice nieghbourhood. I still think she looks fantastic, though.

***

Okay, I think I can see her soon, but if I'm going to get anywhere, I need a gift. She looks really hungry nowadays. She's been in there for about 3 months, so she'll probably be grateful for some food. Too bad there's not much about now but offal and bits of meat lying around...hmm, that one over there looks kind of fresh...wonder if she's a leg or a breast person...

***

Okay, I managed to pull some boards off of a backdoor and I'm going in to surprise her with my gift. I wrapped the pieces up in some newspaper, but they're still dripping slightly...just means they're fresh, that's what I'll tell her. It's really dark inside, but I think I see the stairs to the roof. In the dim light I can still make out the headline on the package.

"Thousands dead as biohazard warning declared."

Bit grim. That's why I don't read the papers. There's another bit about eating each other, but this is from months ago, it'll all be sorted out now. Right, a few more steps and I'm on the roof...I can see her! I want to shout, but my mouth's all dry, she can probably hear me coming anyway. She can see me! She looks so nervous, poor thing...excited to see me, I'll bet. Oh, she's raising her gun...probably just taking it off...

Wonder if she'll want a kiss?